Thursday night, dinner with Paula, Amy, Casey, Hillary and Jen. Friday night, drinks with Justin at NcDevin's then moved on to the square to meet Ryan and Dave and company. Ended up talking with Dave quite a bit - suggested we go to dinner sometime. He seemed interested, and I gave him an easy out because of the Ryan issue. But when it comes down to it, nothing really happened with Ryan, I've been on the fence about him anyways, and the boy is a man whore. I have no issue with that, except that I refuse to make it my issue. For some reason he is under the impression that I am a "hard body" which I think is entirely too entertaining. Found out Saturday that Dave is not much better with the ladies situation when Holly brought him up as a nixed potential for Beth. Can't tell if those girls actually like me. I would think Holly does more so than Beth, but I also don't know how Holly feels about my friendship with Andrew. I kind of don't get those two, and it really kind of sucks since Andrew and I seem to get along really well. As the girls said at dinner, the whole "don't want to ruin the friendship thing" is probably just an excuse, because I'm not really someone that he's interested in. Don't know why I'm still hanging out and wondering what he's thinking - there's obviously no point. Saturday was a debauchery. Down by 10:30, I'd say? I drank a half a bottle of Stoli Blueberry, had two shots, a couple beers and a margarita and then blacked out. I hate myself when I do shit like that. I don't even know why I bother drinking, except it apparently gives me enough liquid courage to talk to the boys. How lame is that.

Stayed in Sunday. It snowed most of the day. This weekend should be a nice little break with the boys out of town. I need to lay low, been spending way too much money. Then paying for the liquid courage with a massive hangover that makes it extremely difficult to work out. I was the only one who showed up for swim this morning - my hunch is that others went out last night. I think I'll live...

Quickies

Tuesday: trecherous ice storm. Still had to come in to work. Still sick, couldn't shake it.

V-Day : Jamie sent a gorgeous arrangement of calla lilies, then followed up with an invite to dinner. I said ok, but was hesitant. Movie plans with Amy, Paula, and another friend were cancelled due to ice. Instead went to meet Paula at Magerk's. Was there with Ryan, Bridgette, and company. Ryan kept asking to go to dinner, back to Fells. Gave in since it was still snowing and I didn't want to be so far from home. We dropped my car off and went to Slainte and then WTF. Had no intentions of making out, but conversation was good - he was surprising. Next thing I know we are upstairs at WTF making out on the couch. Ugh. I hate being that girl. He dropped me off at home, more kissing in the car.

Thursday no swim, just spin, followed by dinner with Justin, Paula, Springer, Amy, Jamie and myself. Awkward with Jamie. Went to the Pickled Parrott afterwards. When I decided to call it quite Jamie made the move to go home as well, so I offered a ride. He pointed out that he thought that he may have freaked me out a bit, that he "kind of was digging on me" but that it was no big deal. He seemed ok but I'm sure I won't see much of him for at least a little while.

Friday...laid low with Heather. Ordered Chinese and watched Marie Antoinette. Saturday ran errands during the day in Annapolis (found a bike!), had dinner at the Cheese with Justin and Andrew, and then went to the movies with Dani and Kendall. Music & Lyrics was dissappointing, and D was in a bad mood. But it was good to see them.

Sunday Funday - trained in the morning, went to Mother's for PJ day brunch. Then went up to Padonia Station for Mickey's Mom's benefit concert to see Mitch. Had a great time. Though I did see Kelly Bell for the first time in years. Awkward, irritating....he found me though I hid for a long while. Went to The Still afterwards. Mitch being very lovely dovey. Didn't deny earlier to fans that I was his girlfriend. Introduced me to his Dad as his best friend in the whole world, the person that saved him from himself many years ago. Heather suggested we go back downtown. I was tired, left them at Fletcher's (didn't want to deal with Mitch trying to sleep with me).

Monday - training at 10AM until 12:30. Lunch at Metropolitan. Then Paul and Justin went to take care of errands and Andrew and I headed out to COlumbia to find training stuff. Checked out Race Pace. Good talks - he is really great and we seem to have a lot in common. Too bad the more I get to know him the less attracted to him I am. Why is that? Left at 5:45 to get the bike. Whole ordeal, didn't get back til 8:30. But I have my bike and I am SO EXCITED!!! Wacthed Heroes then off to bed...

sick-o

Started Tri training on Thursday. Friday night improptu dinner and outing with Paula, Paula's friend, Justin and Jamie. Interesting conversation with Wasser, a little dancing at Portside. Andrew popped in with Holly after their dinner date - life is so unfair. I can't even tell what he really thinks about me, he seems to just lump all women into one big pile. He just loves them all. Weird incident with Jamie and getting a cab. Insisted on walking me to my door, left Paula to fend for herself. Got me in the house, sent text that he was still outside. Went outside, he fumbled for words. Nothing came out. He left, threw his head back in frustration. Thinking he may like me, especially after Andrew confirmed that he saw Jamie almost rip some guys head off for touching my hat on at Portside.

Tried to swim Saturday, to no avail. Andrew popped in last minute, so he, Justin, Paula and I went on Tri errands. Ate lunch, got fitted for running shoes, fitted for bikes. Went to find Andrew a mountain board. Met up with him and Mazy at 3PM and tried it out at Schwann park. Justin saw the kite from the road on the way back from his doc's appt and came to join us. Andrew and I grabbed dinner at McGerk's. Tried to meet Heather and co at WTF, but was tired and sick and losing my voice.

Tomorrow the founders of LownHome come in. So much to do, lunch is being catered. Must rest. Movie date with Paula, Amy and someone I don't know yet. Should be fun...

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If I stepped out of my body I would break into blossoms.
I am extremely passionate and often times stubborn. Some call me feisty, and at times I do agree. We all make mistakes but I like to think I try and make the most of mine. If you can walk the walk and not just talk the talk, well then you and I should get along just fine.

Champion?

Another crazy week. Steve Otten quit on Tuesday evening. Drew was let go on Wednesday. Sales Talk Championship on Wednesday as well - I went dead last, nailed it, and won by a landslide (8 votes out of 13). My first plaque ever, I am honestly so giddy about it. Dinner with Justin Thursday after Dad cancelled due to a last minute issue. Took Dani to dinner at the Wine Market on Friday, then met up with Justin, Andrew and Jaime at McGerks. Immediately Andrew was flirty, it threw me off a bit. Got myself into taking three shots in a row because I couldn't finish my beer. Needless to say, I was wasted and Andrew offered that I could crash at his place. Went to the market, then Grumpies, then the Ropewalk. Needless to say I was drunk, and the next thing I know Andrew and I bolt and stop by to pick up a pizza on the walk home. We eat, talk. I bring up last Saturday. He reitterates that he is very attracted to me, that I'm one of the coolest girls, yadda yadda. He even ran it by Justin and got the "go for it." But he's not ready to be in a relationship. I say I understand, because I do. He is not done dating yet, and he knows it. I do respect that. We make out for a bit. He is worried that we can't begin something sexual and still be friends. And again, he is right. So we make out a bit, and then it's off to bed. Me on the third floor and him on the second. And so we are friends. And so we will triathlon train together and go on vacation together come September. He will date and I will, well, continue to lack traction, and all will be well with the world. I think if anything I am learning that I need to slow the heck down and not just jump into my next relationship. The sex comes and goes, but the friendship and relationship you build in the beginning sets the foundation. I need a strong, solid foundation for the next one. I need to do something different and get out of the rut I'm in. Things must change - it's my only hope of not ending up alone.

Oh and I've come to find that I really don't mind being in such a hurry to get everywhere during the week. I like being busy - I like having things to do. And then I feel that when the weekend comes, I truly deserve it. I live for weekends.