And then there were two

Wow. So much more has happened in the last year than I could ever imagine. That evasive man that I last posted about in frustration? He is now my future husband. Unbelievable. I am so lucky that fate finally brought us together. Ours is a the kind of love I've always dreamed of. Not perfect, but perfectly amazing.

At work, but more to come later. I've missed writing to you, particularly when I'm happy!

February 25th

Today. Today was not such a good day. Today I lost my Uncle, my dear, beloved Uncle. Words cannot explain the hole I feel in my heart. It bleeds sadness, and yet sighs with relief. He is at peace now - no more pain, no more drugs, no more dozing off when he doesn't really want to. And yet I miss him so already.

Had this disease not taken over his body, I cannot say that I would know him as I do today. This day, the day my Grandfather was born so many years ago. More than a bit ironic, don't you think?

I dread this week. I dread facing my family, facing his friends, facing him for one last time. The last time I talked to him was February 14th. Eleven days for which I feel ashamed and guilty for not calling him. I was afraid I would wake him up. I was afraid that he wouldn't be able to speak. I just hope in my heart that he read the letter I left for him in January. I hope he knows how much I love him so, and that I am forever his daughter by blood.

I hope you are at peace, Uncle Sonny. I will try to make you proud in whatever I do.