Wrong...again

I, I do not trust myself anymore. I live in a world of ideals, bound by my complex mind. Reading the last post I feel like a fool. I jump in head first without caution, it happens every time. I do not deserve to find my match or be a part of a pair. I am obviously not ready. And I clearly have no understanding of my true feelings, because one minute I am on and the next I am off but always I am alone.